I’m an alcoholic.

I’m a very successful man. I have tons of money and a great career that makes even more money roll in all the time. But I’m single and lonely and I drink until I black out every night.

It makes the days hard to cope with. Every day seems even harder to get through than the last. But I know my bottles are waiting for me at home. The knowledge persists me every day, for one more day, so I can make it through the day and come home and drink.

I feel like if I stop I will die. The thought of not drinking alcohol is the same as the thought of not drinking water. I feel like If I can’t drink alcohol I will die of thirst. Even if I just want to come home and go to sleep instead of drinking, I can’t sleep. I just lie in bed alert and panicked until eventually I get up and drink some booze.

I’m drunk right now.

God, please help me.