Group Hug

Since my dad left my life I have been obsessed with attention from men. I have dated guys up to 13 years older than me just because they gave me attention. I feed off of having several guys in my life. I can never seem to like just one. I always want to say I love them. I probably have about 3 guys in my life right now that think that they are in love with me and that I feel the same way.

In reality I’m not sure I like anyone. I just love the attention I’m getting.

I think very, very violent thoughts when I get lower than an A on a test.

I love my parents so much. But I feel so far apart from them. I can’t tell them who I’m dating, what I’m into, and how my life is. I feel they wouldn’t understand me because they grew up in a different part of the world. I wish I could be more closer to them.

I am freakishly similiar to chandler from friends, not appearance as i am a girl but i’m a total commitment phobe, i went out with my ex on off 4 ages i wud go out with him thn dump him thn want him bak, hes got a new gf now, and i totally want him bak, i tell all my friends that i’m truly in love with him but i think its just me and my stupid games,
his best friend has just died and hes planning to dump his gf, my friends r all tellin me to get in there but my concscience has gotten the better of me, i think i need to grow up n find someone els, i watch too many movies that is my ultimate problem, i jus expect life to be just like the films, i’m naive and immature is my final anylasys o and i can’t spell either.

I want a hug. And some taco bell.

i have a lot of regrets about our sexual relationship. and i want to get back together to show you i’m willing to be more risky and daring. because i know it would make you happier.

I’ve loved you for years. You have a girlfriend I hope we can be together one day. We are perfect.

Fuck all this shit. I’m sick of faking my life through. It wont get better. Because people wont change and neither will I. I’m always going to be this lonely and I know it. There is no point in being here. Life itself is empty. We live for about 80 myears and we are done. We try and convince ourselfs we go to a place like heaven but its shit. whatever like I said. I will always be lonely, and so will you